Without the awareness of physical sensation, we wouldn’t receive the signals that let us know that something harmful is happening to our body. We could possibly slice off a finger while using a knife before we ever realized what happened. Similarly, shutting down the awareness of thoughts, feelings and the events taking place in our lives endangers us by decreasing our awareness of our interactions and ourselves.

The ability to think and feel are basic functions of our consciousness. They’re a reflection where we are within ourselves, and our relationship to the world we live in. Sometimes what we experience is unpleasant, but that happens for a reason.

We typically experience uncomfortable and sometimes painful thoughts, feelings and emotions in response to stressful events. They’re just normal responses to what is happening in our lives. It becomes problematic when we lack the understanding, skills, capability or willingness to work constructively with the events unfolding in our lives and our internal responses to them.

The thoughts, feelings and emotions that we experience in response to the events of our lives need to go through a process in which they can be resolved. We’re meant to digest our internal responses. When this doesn’t happen, the conflicted or painful thoughts, and feelings drop out of our conscious awareness. As they descend into our subconscious, they become more deeply embedded. Over time they become part of the fabric of our personality. These conflicted dynamics become hardwired into us.

When patterns of thought descend into the subconscious, they become much more powerful and take on a greater permanence as they transform into beliefs. These beliefs act as filters or structures that have a major impact in determining how we think, feel and respond to the world there after.

These patterns of belief can often trigger very unpleasant and unresourceful emotional states. These emotional states in turn elicit more negative thoughts and imagery and so the cycle builds.

When we shut our emotions and feelings down they turn into a kind of cement that buries and reinforces the conflicted dynamics. It has the effect of numbing or deadening us. Suppressing thoughts, emotions and feelings causes us to dissociate. We become more disconnected from our body, our mind and all it’s internal processes and the world that we live in. Pushing things down inside of us or out of our awareness distance us from the underlying source of the problem. Often the source of the conflicts have become so far removed, that we are not able to get back to these places on our own with the tools that are available to us. That’s why it can be so difficult to change.

Suppressing our feelings and emotions also amplifies the dynamics, giving them a lot more power. Sometimes these issues become so big and intimidating to the point to where we are either afraid or unable to face them. This is how we have given birth to the inner monsters or demons that plague our lives.

As I mentioned before, these conflicted inner dynamics originate out of our responses to the stressful events taking place in our lives. As a child we may be subjected to unreasonably high expectations, and grow up feeling that nothing we ever do is good enough. Some children struggle in vain to win the love, attention and approval of a parent. As an adult they find themselves attracted to unavailable partners who trigger the same kinds of painful feelings as they reinforce the patterns that developed in childhood.

Pay attention to the relational dynamics that are playing out between children and their parents. Notice how the child is affected by the interaction and how they respond emotionally. Now multiply that by thousands of hours and you will begin to understand how powerfully these experiences can shape our personality and influence our lives.

Traumatic experiences resulting from physical or sexual abuse can leave a person fractured as they destroy any sense of cohesion and integration of the self. Many of these individuals are repeatedly triggered into overwhelming emotional states as the mind replays the emotions, thoughts and imagery of the past trauma.

These patterns can also develop later in life when we block out the pain we feel or the awareness of what’s happening during a hurtful relationship. Maybe we get burned really bad, and now we become so guarded that we can’t let anyone in.

Our minds can become so dominated by the backlog of conflicted thought and emotion. A mind bound by conflict will resemble a computer that functions poorly because its hard drive is all clogged up with garbage files. In some ways these dynamics function similarly to the drivers that determine how our software operates, because they have such tremendous power and influence to direct our thoughts, feelings and actions. They also operate like computer viruses with their ability to limit, sabotage and in some instances destroy us.

These dynamics involve whole separate processes of thought and feeling that operate beyond the range of our conscious awareness. These other parts of us have their own agendas, needs, wants and values and make other decisions that can be completely contrary to what we consciously desire.

These parts of us can be like ghosts that move around on the inside. Sometimes these parts can take on other forms. It may express itself as some from of compulsive, or addictive behavior or it can manifest as some form of illness. In some instances we will completely forget about the initial events that took place, yet we are still powerfully influenced by our reactions to these events. So often, we have no idea of what is driving us.

These conflicting patterns become a form of programming that determines how our minds function. In so many instances it causes us to attract or recreate the same kinds of experiences over and over again which has the effect of reinforcing the patterns.

I hear people express their grief and frustration over having worked on themselves for years, yet they feel that they are still stuck or struggling with the same issues. Many people will continually fight against these parts of themselves. Others want to think they’ve worked out these issues, when in actuality they’ve managed to push it down inside of themselves someplace, where they are not as aware of the interference. There are some individuals who have found the right tools or just had the capacity within themselves to effect profound change and transform their lives, but most people tend to carry these patterns to their grave.

I can readily observe these patterns within people when I look into a person’s aura. I can also feel the dynamics kinesthetically and then I confirm what I’m sensing with the accounts that people share with me of their lives. I find that most popular or conventional therapies or healing modalities are not directly accessing the underlying source of the problem.

A good therapist can help you work with the issues at the level of the conscious mind and provide good strategies and models that help you to move forward in your life. Many who have gone through therapy gain an intellectual understanding of what’s happening, but continue to struggle within the context of the holding patterns they are locked into. Sometimes there are emotional releases that facilitate healing, but it usually doesn’t go as far as changing the underlying framework embedded within the psyche.

What people think of as "energy work" will move or clear some of the congested energy. Most people who attempt to practice healing here in America are working at very amateurish levels and do not have access to the kind of powers that will facilitate the needed change by correcting the underlying structures that developed out of painful and limiting experiences.

Spiritual paths are so diverse and varied in their approaches. Spiritual practices can facilitate development on many levels, but they do not necessarily heal the parts of us that are hurting. I see many instances where spiritual practices distance a person from the conflicted or wounded parts of self. Many practices such as sending light into these parts of the self or trying to release (get rid of all the negative feelings by breathing or pushing the feelings outside of one’s self) only sabotage the psyche’s natural process of healing.

The healing practices utilized within various indigenous cultures have proven to be much more effective at healing these parts of ourselves. That’s why many of the Native American soldiers returning from the wars were able to heal and get on with their lives while their non-native counterparts were left shattered by their wartime experiences.

During the individual healing sessions, I’m able to see and feel the dynamics that people have played out in a their lives. And with each subsequent session I am able to monitor the progress an individual is making.

There are specific breathing practices that I guide a person through that enables them to gain access to these parts of the self. I have people take their awareness into the middle of the feelings while breathing softly. Keeping your focus on the feelings as you breathe softly into them activates the healing processes within your own psyche that helps to undo and facilitate resolution of these patterns.

Sometimes I utilize hypnosis to redirect the mind. Hypnosis allows me to dismantle the structures or models that have kept a person locked into limited or painful patterns of thought, feeling and behavior. I work to instill newer healthier models by initiating generative cycles within the individual that support continued growth and development. In addition, I’m able to give instructions to the subconscious mind that will help it to process all the thoughts and feelings in a way that is much more gentle and easy. This will soften and diffuse the intensity associated with painful or traumatic emotions.

The main part of the work involves a process that I learned from my mentor Horace, a traditional doctor among the Kiowa tribe. During the healing sessions, various beings that work through me that take a person into very deep levels where they can begin to really digest the thoughts, emotions and events of their lives. These beings begin to dismantle the configurations that developed out of painful or limiting experiences of the past. At the same time, they construct new and more resourceful models or structures that truly support you. This will facilitate deep internal change that will be reflected in your outer life.

You will begin to clean up your life. Unhealthy attachments will start to dissolve and you will develop healthier and more nourishing relationships. Neurotic patterns of thought and behavior begin to diminish and are replaced with more productive, and life affirming responses. Addictions will begin to fall away and you will find your wants and needs changing in a way that cause you to make healthier choices.

This healing practice will bring you to a place of greater self-awareness that will allow you to see and feel the patterns you have unconsciously lived out. You will feel much more connected to your body. You will experience a much greater degree of integration between your mind, body and emotions. The signals become much clearer and that makes it easier for you to process the information. The greater cohesive integration resulting from this healing process allows you to more readily access the source of the painful or limiting patterns. You’ll be able to get right to the root of the problem where you can start to effect real change for the better. There will be a lot less fighting and struggling with yourself because you will resolve a lot of the guilt, blame or other self-critical and other self-defeating tendencies. In its place, you will feel greater self-acceptance, an inner sense of freedom and a connection to the higher power. Instead of being so reactive to circumstance, you will become more adaptive. This healing process ignites the creative generative powers within you. You will find yourself opening up in totally new ways that will allow you to access various resources within yourself and to develop new capabilities. You will grow stronger and become more resilient. This will better enable you to bring about the kinds of changes you want in yourself and your life.