Finding the God Within

The pain I felt during my mid twenties was overwhelming. But somehow I had an instinctive sense that led me to go down into the middle of it. I then began to breathe very soft and deep. I had never felt pain like that before and it really scared me. I didn’t know if something was wrong with me or if I would just go over the edge.

The pain grew even stronger as I continued to breathe. There were times where all I could do was lay curled up on my side. And then all of a sudden the pain broke open. I could feel the pain coming out of my body in waves. And then this powerful warmth began to emanate from the middle of my chest. The warmth became stronger and began to fill my body as I continued to breathe into it.

This experience happened on numerous occasions. It taught me that pain was nothing to fear. I learned that I would eventually come out the other side of the pain if I continued to breathe into it. The more I went through this process the easier it became. I was able to process thoughts and emotions, resolve issues and bounce back faster. And this has helped me to become more resilient.

I began to experience tremendous change in my life as I combined this practice with other healing processes. Many of the patterns I had been stuck in began to break apart.

Going through the pain brought me to a place where I could feel acceptance, appreciation and compassion for myself. And that helped me to better understand the suffering that people go through in their lives.

The warmth I experienced at these times is very healing. It comforts, nourishes and sustains me. And it gives me the strength to continue on in my life. I realized that as I experienced this presence that I was connecting to my source. So that no matter where I go or what I do, I feel this connection to the higher power.

Painful emotions can serve as a door way that can lead us to our source. I gradually came to realize that we don’t necessarily have to go through pain connect with our source.

My self-awareness has increased as a result of my work with various healing practices. I’ve become much more aware of my own connection to the source. It’s easy to get caught up in all the dramas and other distractions of daily life. But at times I begin to still myself. And that allows me to sense what’s happening in my body. The feelings will differ from time to time. Sometimes I experience feelings of calm. And at other times I experience emanations of warmth or a comforting presence. These feelings are usually subtle, but they grow stronger as I continue to breathe softly and deeply while staying focused on my connection to source.

I experience the connection to the higher power as a current. The connection grows stronger over time as I continue to focus my awareness on this presence flowing from within. As this current flows through me and I’m recognizing more and more a greater purpose as it unfolds from day to day. And along with that comes the realization of a profound creative intelligence at work in my life.